So, Sunday. A good rollercoster ride today. Every weekend is unexpected. i expect bad, turns out good, i expect good, turns out bad.
Today morning when i got up, i was on the verge of nervous break down. so scared to go out. and i was all in the drama mood, because i was just sitting making a long face, so obvious that even my blind husband saw and asked me what happened. It was cute of him to ask me, but good that i didnt open my mouth, dont know what words would have come out. words are always dangerous esp to a person who just dont want to understand and use the same exact words against you when he gets a chance.
day b4 yesterday my uncle had a baby boy. i thought i will tell the devil this, and may be this will be an ice breaker. by the time i went out it was close to 10 in the morning. i went n washed the utensils, and started making coffee and she said both of you have breakfast(she made, because her husband is here) her tone was not very rude, manageable. so i also got d courage to tell her about the kid news. at this point i thought today would be little better.
i came inside to oil my hair, by the time my sweet husband will come out the bathroom. and when we went out food was already on the plate. we had and i started washing the endless utensils that she kept throwing. and i was doing little work like washing rice, spinach etc. she would got the feel that im trying too hard to help her, and why will a control freak ever like it. she made me sit with a vegetable to cut n peel. this is not to be used today, but to store it in fridge. anyhow i was not angry. after all we women are good at manipulating. so is her, let her do it. its serving both the purpose, very good bitch.
by the time i finished the peeling n cutting she tried finishing the cooking. but she missed a little. and when i went back, she was making egg n meat. i peeled the egg, and started washing utensils again. then some time pass, and then broomed the house. by the time all was over. and we sat to lunch.
while washing utensils after lunch she was cleaning the stove area, i said i will do it. i know she was planning to make me clean kitchen. but when she does such thing, i feel exploited. remember the last time she exploited me while cleaning the hall floor. but its been long time since then and my relation was also going out of control with her, so i wanted to take this up. and since i knew she will exploit, i was prepared from the beginning. i started cleaning. i was thinking 2 fav things of her - kitchen n cleaning. she must be excited about me doing this. when she sees a clean kitchen she would be happy. but u never know, miss half glass empty can never be satisfied.
i did half cleaning and she said we can do rest next week, but was trying to push much of it today itself. i was so exhusted, i came n slept for 2 hours. wonder how my husband could watch me sleep peacfully. it must be killing him. i then took bath by 7. in the night my husband n me had a cold war. he was telling me we can eat dinner, at 9.15 but i was so pissed at him. i kept delying. and at 10, he pretended like sleeping. iasked him for dinner and he was angry. somehow he came n had dinner. i washed utensils againg and now im writing this. i was pissed off with my husband because when i was talking bath power went and he didnt even bother to check in me. i came out with towel after few mins and took mobile n went inside. selfish asshole!
And yesterday night i was shit tired, after coming back from office. he said we can have dinner n sleep early. but asshole couldnt sleep and wanted sex. i hope no gal have to hear such things from her husband. dont know why god assumes that i can take these things. now also while im typing these things my husband is making move to me, u son of bitch just few mins back u were shit angry with now, now for sleeping u shameless creature will let go all ur ego. sometimes i wish he was immpotent. but then that is the only thing he is kind to me for. if he becomes immpotent he wouldnt even care if im alive or dead. nor he will support me from his mother.
Today morning when i got up, i was on the verge of nervous break down. so scared to go out. and i was all in the drama mood, because i was just sitting making a long face, so obvious that even my blind husband saw and asked me what happened. It was cute of him to ask me, but good that i didnt open my mouth, dont know what words would have come out. words are always dangerous esp to a person who just dont want to understand and use the same exact words against you when he gets a chance.
day b4 yesterday my uncle had a baby boy. i thought i will tell the devil this, and may be this will be an ice breaker. by the time i went out it was close to 10 in the morning. i went n washed the utensils, and started making coffee and she said both of you have breakfast(she made, because her husband is here) her tone was not very rude, manageable. so i also got d courage to tell her about the kid news. at this point i thought today would be little better.
i came inside to oil my hair, by the time my sweet husband will come out the bathroom. and when we went out food was already on the plate. we had and i started washing the endless utensils that she kept throwing. and i was doing little work like washing rice, spinach etc. she would got the feel that im trying too hard to help her, and why will a control freak ever like it. she made me sit with a vegetable to cut n peel. this is not to be used today, but to store it in fridge. anyhow i was not angry. after all we women are good at manipulating. so is her, let her do it. its serving both the purpose, very good bitch.
by the time i finished the peeling n cutting she tried finishing the cooking. but she missed a little. and when i went back, she was making egg n meat. i peeled the egg, and started washing utensils again. then some time pass, and then broomed the house. by the time all was over. and we sat to lunch.
while washing utensils after lunch she was cleaning the stove area, i said i will do it. i know she was planning to make me clean kitchen. but when she does such thing, i feel exploited. remember the last time she exploited me while cleaning the hall floor. but its been long time since then and my relation was also going out of control with her, so i wanted to take this up. and since i knew she will exploit, i was prepared from the beginning. i started cleaning. i was thinking 2 fav things of her - kitchen n cleaning. she must be excited about me doing this. when she sees a clean kitchen she would be happy. but u never know, miss half glass empty can never be satisfied.
i did half cleaning and she said we can do rest next week, but was trying to push much of it today itself. i was so exhusted, i came n slept for 2 hours. wonder how my husband could watch me sleep peacfully. it must be killing him. i then took bath by 7. in the night my husband n me had a cold war. he was telling me we can eat dinner, at 9.15 but i was so pissed at him. i kept delying. and at 10, he pretended like sleeping. iasked him for dinner and he was angry. somehow he came n had dinner. i washed utensils againg and now im writing this. i was pissed off with my husband because when i was talking bath power went and he didnt even bother to check in me. i came out with towel after few mins and took mobile n went inside. selfish asshole!
And yesterday night i was shit tired, after coming back from office. he said we can have dinner n sleep early. but asshole couldnt sleep and wanted sex. i hope no gal have to hear such things from her husband. dont know why god assumes that i can take these things. now also while im typing these things my husband is making move to me, u son of bitch just few mins back u were shit angry with now, now for sleeping u shameless creature will let go all ur ego. sometimes i wish he was immpotent. but then that is the only thing he is kind to me for. if he becomes immpotent he wouldnt even care if im alive or dead. nor he will support me from his mother.
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