Another fight with my husband, and I hit him very much

So, I lost my self and slapped my husband many times in a fight. 

I have totally wrecked it now. It is a very big deal for him. 

Yes, there are many issues with him, that I want him to fix. But that won't happen. How can I fix this?

I am planning to see phycologist for my self over anger issue and other things to improve my emotional health.

I don't know how many more days this fight is going to go. 

I think I did a pretty good job on handling the aftermath and fixing it. I spoke to him, and it seems he had cooled down a bit. But not sure, he might go back to it again.

Worstdays of my life. I am confident now, I can't do it on my own and need professional help. 

I look for positive things in all the situation, I am trying to do the same here as well. Hope, that is what I am holding on to. 

I have a best life, let me not lose it.

Deep thoughts of husband

So, today a bit of fight happened. We tried a lot not to fight but he wants to fight over small things.

Changed Husband suddenly

 So, we went to India. Damu went a month earlier than us to attend his cousin wedding. so he ran out of leaves pretty quickly and had to return by christmas. We stayed back and went to delhi and enjoyed. During new year time he was alone and was doing over thinking and messaged me , that how he is not happy with the way his marriage is going. i didnt reply anything. But when i came back i was surprised to see his changed behaviour. Oh My God! he is very nice to me, he says thanks for everything. In the morning he comes around to hug and kiss me. He said that he is a changed mad now and then he will never ever fight with me again. I was skeptical, how can a negative person suddenly become so positive. anyway, i wanted to just go with the flow. as my new year resoultion is to trust god 100% and nothing can ever go wrong in my life. so it was all roses for 3 days. and today we had the talk, and i tried hard not to spill any beans, but things came out of my mouth a bit. I said some stuff. not sure what will happen. lets hope for best. as i said, every single leaf moves for my benefit.