Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Just another day

Tomorrow my aunt is going to come. I am scared if there will be problems after that.

Today work went well, I deployed the code using Jenkins. I feel so stupid, there is so much to learn and I keep forgetting what ever I learn.

Monday, September 15, 2014

Normal day at work

I am in a delicate social situation. My lead is a Chinese, but he claims to be a new Yorker and he is from MKNC. My manager is also from MKNC. I don't know whom to rely on and whom to trust. I feel like everyone is on the tip of their seat ready to play the blame game. god forbids anything should go wrong, then the dirty picture will be out.

I tried the power pose today. I did it once in the morning. the day was fine. I am happy.
will continue it tomorrow.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

OMG! I did it

Hi,  I came back to you after a very long time. I am so glad with my accomplishments. I struggled so hard to clear IELTS, get PR visa, get a project in my company and mainly convince my dumb husband and their people to come here. the kind of stories and tricks that I played in this game is mind bobbling.
Any how, I am her and I am basking in the glory while next set of challenge is ready to be taken.

I just watched a TED talk about how mind is affected by the body posture, even though it is an old news, it was nice reminder for me now. I need to feel powerful, confident. I need to prove that I am smart.

I was thinking about ego. Ego is a very important topic, I think school children should be trained for it.
1. how to deal with others ego. every one have ego. for example, if I have to impress a guy, then I could put on lots of make up, even do plastic surgery for that matter, put on expensive dress, jewelry, shoes. I can practically invest tens of thousands of money. what am I doing here? trying to become an object which he will desire for. What if I do something to give his ego a boost, like give a honest compliment about his capabilities, preferably no one noticed him for. he may be dying to get that appreciation, and when I do it, I get noticed. next time when he sees me, he has a good memory, his mind is happy.
every one wants them to be irreplaceable. why do you think the historical problem between mom in law and daughter in law. then younger one is the replacement for the older one. she will not share any secret, tricks and techniques with the daughter in law. the same is true with the old worker and new worker, the old worker will never teach the tactics in the work to the new ones.
2. how to deal with our ego. we should learn to let go of our ego. all major problem in human life is due to ego, we should learn to tame it and be a master of it. let it not control our lives any more.