Dream taught me a leason

A dream today, where I am a student, I.e. young and I have a boyfriend. He is a very weak hearted. But loves me. I am with him.
When I woke up I was wondering why did I choose to be with him. Considering my current situation, you know...
Have a very funny feeling from then on, so much that I wanted to note it down.
May be my current situation is not that bad. If I had an option to choose I could have chosen this same thing for me. Since I got it without asking I am not appreciating it so much.

Dreams

Dreams are so fucking messed up, and they messes with your brain and your day. The thing that I thought I have forgotten and got over with,. Came fresh in my dream. With the same feeling and passion. Like it has awaken a sleeping giant and my mind all fycked up again. Why do they (dreams) do that? Unbelievable man! Will it ever move on? Why does it do this to me? I mean, now when things are finally right, why does it messes up everything.
Fuck you dreams, fuck your guts to dare to mess with me again and again.

Happy new year

I wanted to say 2 things:
My sleeping habit has gone bad.
Not able to get up early and my morning routine has gone bad. Didn't go for jog, not doing yoga and meditation. Have to get back on track.

Yesterday, one person's 10 year anniversary in my company. He is the most key resource. Alright 2nd or 3rd most key resource. But most vital for client side. Confidence level for such a person should be phenomenal. But.... He was just a lousy person. I didn't notice it much before, but when they were discussing about him yesterday in presentation, I realized he was much worse from the start. His resume was crying out loud that he is not worth the job, his dress were always shabby and not at all formal. His language was always crying out loud that don't even bother about me.
I related to it like a flash. It is me, I am that person. Even when I will be here 10 years and contribute so much to the company, I will still feel shabby. And they would pay me very less.
Unless I decide to change no one can help me.
I am going to come up with a plan to change.