So, this Bob. he is totally crazy about me. About me! can u believe that?
ok, so what happened in college was i used to talk to him daily during the last year for few days, dont remember, may be a month or so. And then he told my common friend about his intentions. i said no, and obviously what i thought was it is a decision he took in a haste. but the way he is now talking to me, man makes me cry. he liked me from first year itself. and he used to think low of himself and hence didnt have the confidence to approach me.
no one understands me better than him. when he talks its like im hearing my own voice. actually his views n my views are so much alike that today i thought to myself, am i hallucinating? like that of the movie beautiful mind. Man, did i make a mistake? or is it for the best?
Im so scared if i slip out n say anything stupid to him. I know im in a bad state now, and there is nothing to make things worse. but still im scared that i would complicate the already complicated situation.
But u know, im struck being selfish again. i need his help so bad now. i know he is also a wise man and will not complicate my life. but i dont trust myself. oh my god, why did u make me a bitch?!
What is this new problem budding?
The way he admires me, it would be a dream of every gal that a guy would admire her this way. my heart is aching now. i feel sorry for him. if i can turn back time, i would have said yes to him.
im sorry Bob, im really really sorry. i dont know why the fate is playing such cruel game with us. do i deserve this much admiration now with anybody at all? i feel guilty. but im getting addicted to his calls, his pings in gtalk, his messages in mobile. what am i? 15? Hello!!??
Ok, apart from this, today i spoke to my manager about my leave plans. as usual, with little tantrum, she said she will check n let me know. but sincerely hoping that it works. but my instinct is telling me this not going to happen. yes, very strong instinct. dont know what it is trying to tell me.
Oh my F God! u must be crazy! u need help!
I told Bob about this, and also about my job to find a job there itself. i was not expecting support, i was expecting a conflict in opinion. but he went with me. thats why now im thinking, is it an Hallucination?
ok, so what happened in college was i used to talk to him daily during the last year for few days, dont remember, may be a month or so. And then he told my common friend about his intentions. i said no, and obviously what i thought was it is a decision he took in a haste. but the way he is now talking to me, man makes me cry. he liked me from first year itself. and he used to think low of himself and hence didnt have the confidence to approach me.
no one understands me better than him. when he talks its like im hearing my own voice. actually his views n my views are so much alike that today i thought to myself, am i hallucinating? like that of the movie beautiful mind. Man, did i make a mistake? or is it for the best?
Im so scared if i slip out n say anything stupid to him. I know im in a bad state now, and there is nothing to make things worse. but still im scared that i would complicate the already complicated situation.
But u know, im struck being selfish again. i need his help so bad now. i know he is also a wise man and will not complicate my life. but i dont trust myself. oh my god, why did u make me a bitch?!
What is this new problem budding?
The way he admires me, it would be a dream of every gal that a guy would admire her this way. my heart is aching now. i feel sorry for him. if i can turn back time, i would have said yes to him.
im sorry Bob, im really really sorry. i dont know why the fate is playing such cruel game with us. do i deserve this much admiration now with anybody at all? i feel guilty. but im getting addicted to his calls, his pings in gtalk, his messages in mobile. what am i? 15? Hello!!??
Ok, apart from this, today i spoke to my manager about my leave plans. as usual, with little tantrum, she said she will check n let me know. but sincerely hoping that it works. but my instinct is telling me this not going to happen. yes, very strong instinct. dont know what it is trying to tell me.
Oh my F God! u must be crazy! u need help!
I told Bob about this, and also about my job to find a job there itself. i was not expecting support, i was expecting a conflict in opinion. but he went with me. thats why now im thinking, is it an Hallucination?
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