My mind is so fucked up. I mean its like spinning. I didn’t sleep yesterday night, I was so angry. Latterly, I was angry the whole time. I felt like smashing something. So much anger build up in me, and I have to vent it out somehow, by not causing any bad move.

I was just waiting for the alarm to ring and I can go to office, get the hell out of the house.

All the past was running in my mind, like how MIL treats me. How she gives me cold look, all this were in my mind, while I was getting ready, and I came out pretty soon. I wanted to go out and stand in the fresh air and wait for the bus. And my mom came out, packed my lunch and spoke all sweetly, with love and funnily, but I couldn’t smile. My through was chocking, I wanted to get the hell out of there before I become all teary. But my mom kept asking what happed.. and u know when someone does that, its even more hard to stop the tear. I'm sorry, but my mom had to see my tears. I quickly rushed out. It was so hard not to cry, tears kept coming back….

 

I don’t know what I can tell her now. I did upset her. I mean , I never cry, and she knows that. She knows me as a strong person. I never cry.

Thank god there is a place called office. And u can get away from home and literally stop thinking about home for some 6-10 hours.