Today is the day that im usually scared of. Today is sunday. yesterday i went to office to escape this death boredom at home. and avoid all the taunting of MIL. today i had no escape and to make matter worse both my husband and brother in law went out, i realized that this situation will only make MIL to concentrate completely on me, i dont like it. she her attention is else where and some task to do, she is nice to me. but there nothing to put her thought on, she turns into a devil. she is such a bitch and she makes me so scared of her.
Anyway today one of those days and i was in a pickle. but u know i have grownup so much, i have got adapted like an animal to its environment.
1. she was acting like she is shit busy, and it was 10.30 or 11.00 and she was washing clothes. i asked her for the sake of courtesy that should i wash rice? she said she dont know what curry to make. totally irrelevant answer but then, thats MIL for you. i came n sat down coolly as if nothing happened. earlier i would get pissed off at this point.
2. then when she washed rice, i asked her what curry to make. then her golden uncomfortable silence. i asked her should i cut anything, at this point she started her lecture - u are concerned with only cutting, u should learn to cook blah blah. fuck her... am i not helping her in spite of all the insult that she is giving me, now if she is just looking for a chance to shout, then im not going to go gaga over her talk. ignore! earlier i would be little nervous at this point.
3. Then she had decided to make some curry and was cutting vegetable, i asked her if i can put rice for boiling - her cold answer - i have put it. the thing was she had just kept water in the gas, and when it will boil we have to put rice in it, earlier i used to get pissed off with her cold reaction. now im not. in fact if i watch her getting pissed of and turning cold and like go on bitch, u r only making it harder for us to live together and wait n watch who will be with u in ur old days.
4. And then when the cooking was happening in full fledged and i was trying desperately to fit in, she gave me a garlic and asked me to peel it. now im off her hair. bitch... i dont need her secret recipe. she can fuck with it. its a very unhealthy damaging food that she serves, im better off with it.
5. After cooking is done, she ate, and then asked me to eat, i said i will eat after taking bath. she murmured eat and then take bath any way u will take 4 hours to take bath. this is such pissing off thing, but i literally smiled at it, u know why, i realized how similar mother n son are. even my husband does it and till now i had countless number of fight with him. today i had a ah moment when i realized where it came from. actually both are useless people and i will be wasting my time n energy in understanding and reacting to them. IGNORE!!
6. my husband called my mother in law at 9.30 and said he will be late, and asked her to tell me that i shall eat n sleep. i was watching a movie is laptop, sensing this i did alt tab, but she didnt come. she prepared all set to sleep and told me this at 10. but u know im not all angry because her voice... i saw me in it. when im scared to tell people something and that makes me delay the process of telling them and finally it becomes too late. like calling to my manager for leave, i never call them early. i would hold the phone and sit literally for hours starring at it. im such a scared chicken. today i saw that kind of feel in my mother in voice. and i was like - man someone is hesitating to talk to me and is kind of scared. man im proud of myself.
its ok, i know im not living my life, but soon i will when this bitch will leave the house. right now i have got time to prepare for interview. use the opportunity.
Anyway today one of those days and i was in a pickle. but u know i have grownup so much, i have got adapted like an animal to its environment.
1. she was acting like she is shit busy, and it was 10.30 or 11.00 and she was washing clothes. i asked her for the sake of courtesy that should i wash rice? she said she dont know what curry to make. totally irrelevant answer but then, thats MIL for you. i came n sat down coolly as if nothing happened. earlier i would get pissed off at this point.
2. then when she washed rice, i asked her what curry to make. then her golden uncomfortable silence. i asked her should i cut anything, at this point she started her lecture - u are concerned with only cutting, u should learn to cook blah blah. fuck her... am i not helping her in spite of all the insult that she is giving me, now if she is just looking for a chance to shout, then im not going to go gaga over her talk. ignore! earlier i would be little nervous at this point.
3. Then she had decided to make some curry and was cutting vegetable, i asked her if i can put rice for boiling - her cold answer - i have put it. the thing was she had just kept water in the gas, and when it will boil we have to put rice in it, earlier i used to get pissed off with her cold reaction. now im not. in fact if i watch her getting pissed of and turning cold and like go on bitch, u r only making it harder for us to live together and wait n watch who will be with u in ur old days.
4. And then when the cooking was happening in full fledged and i was trying desperately to fit in, she gave me a garlic and asked me to peel it. now im off her hair. bitch... i dont need her secret recipe. she can fuck with it. its a very unhealthy damaging food that she serves, im better off with it.
5. After cooking is done, she ate, and then asked me to eat, i said i will eat after taking bath. she murmured eat and then take bath any way u will take 4 hours to take bath. this is such pissing off thing, but i literally smiled at it, u know why, i realized how similar mother n son are. even my husband does it and till now i had countless number of fight with him. today i had a ah moment when i realized where it came from. actually both are useless people and i will be wasting my time n energy in understanding and reacting to them. IGNORE!!
6. my husband called my mother in law at 9.30 and said he will be late, and asked her to tell me that i shall eat n sleep. i was watching a movie is laptop, sensing this i did alt tab, but she didnt come. she prepared all set to sleep and told me this at 10. but u know im not all angry because her voice... i saw me in it. when im scared to tell people something and that makes me delay the process of telling them and finally it becomes too late. like calling to my manager for leave, i never call them early. i would hold the phone and sit literally for hours starring at it. im such a scared chicken. today i saw that kind of feel in my mother in voice. and i was like - man someone is hesitating to talk to me and is kind of scared. man im proud of myself.
its ok, i know im not living my life, but soon i will when this bitch will leave the house. right now i have got time to prepare for interview. use the opportunity.
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