Thursday, December 3, 2020

Just some ranting.

 Lots of things running in my mind:

1. Why i am constantly jealous of people. I am jealous of people who married the man she loves. I am jealous of people who have a bit better husband. 

2. Yesterday i was jealous of my neighbour, she got a job and i  saw her dressed up nicely for work. 

3. I feel bad for my relationship. i am in a dead end relationship. He only needs food and sex, nothing else, dont even care to talk to me. well, honestly even if he talks, i feel it is garbage. I have stopped making effort to make him happy. I just dont see any point of it. It is always give and give, and not one kind word in return. 


I was thinking, my level of satisfaction is not in having a loving husband. My satisfaction should come from a greater task. Which i do with my own hands. Thats your destiny. Move towards that instead of complaining about the set, god made for you.


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