Do you know Eklavya from the epic Mahabarath? He asked guru Dhronachariya to teach him archery. But Guru Dhronacharya declined him due to his caste. But Eklavya, made a statue of him and assumed the statue as his guru and started practising archery in front of it. His passion combined with his love for guru Dhronachariya alone made him excellent archer. But the actual guru was he fit for that love? When the guru met and learned about this, he asked his thumb as guru fees. Had Eklavya not met guru or interestingly, he had hidden the fact that he learned due to the guru then his thumb would have been safe.
I have a guru Dhronachariya in my life. I am so devoted to him. But is he fit for that kind of respect when he is not reciprocating anything in return. If I reveal to him that I crossed the many hurdles based on his teaching, would he ask for my thumb? I would just not reveal anything to him. Let him be in his own world, and I will be in my fantasy world, keeping him as my guru in the form of a statue, and imagining all the wonderful advice and guidance he would have given me and cared for me.
I have a guru Dhronachariya in my life. I am so devoted to him. But is he fit for that kind of respect when he is not reciprocating anything in return. If I reveal to him that I crossed the many hurdles based on his teaching, would he ask for my thumb? I would just not reveal anything to him. Let him be in his own world, and I will be in my fantasy world, keeping him as my guru in the form of a statue, and imagining all the wonderful advice and guidance he would have given me and cared for me.
When you left you left a big void in me. The void is so big, that now I realise you yourself wouldn't have filled the void. So now I am not repenting of losing you. But me and my void are keeping company for 10 years now. Still have lot of getting used to left to do.
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