So, we had a nice vacation. Gov gave us free vouchers to stay, so we used that and went to stay near by place called 'The entrance'. It was ok, the same old miser husband, what fun can you expect. used the dine in voucher, and for one day made and packed food from home. Still he was not happy that the expense on those days were high, because, of the drinks and icecream that we got from coles. oh common!
Anyways, coming back to the fight, i just said something rudly about not to scold Tanusha and that's all his fuse was blown out. same old story - i didnt get transfer after the wedding immediately, then when got pregnant went away from home and didnt come back at all. he didnt spend time with tanusha in her inital 4 years, my dad made him invest in a useless life insurance, he didnt buy a house till now, there are cockroaches in the home. Same old story. that he is doing all the work of cooking, cleaning, picking up tanusha and shopping.
Now its been 4 days and he is still not talking. I dont know how i am holding up, because when he behaves like that with me, there is a shiver in my body. Yes, i am ashamed to say that i am so weak. i cant even handle this much of pressure.
But i am trying to stay positive. one feedback that he gave me was, i talk very rudely. like my dad, like talking to a third person with no compassion, when i am upset. he said same thing others say it differently. I am working on that feedback, in the meantime.
1. Always this kind of tension has only brought in better of me, i took a giant leap only when this kind of pressure is there. I think this is a good thing, this fight. The tension in the house is unbearable.
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