An Idea can change your life

Today in the bus while returning home, i was very sad. i didnt want to come home for the obvious reason. Suicide thought was frequenting my mind now n then. dying seems to be an easy and pleasant option. I turned on radio in my mobile and was hearing to some boring stuff, when this another boring ad. came for idea network. its quote is - An idea can change your life. Just then i asked myself, give me also an idea which will change my life. i dont want idea like running away, divorce, suicide. i want a smart idea. and Jhat came answer to me, find a job that is far away from ur current home. such that ur office n ur brother in law office are practically far off and u both cant stay together. obviously we have to stay in separate house and my husband will come with me and the bitch will go with Brother in  law. So simple and smart answer. Why this solution got buried under? why i forgot about this solution? am i enjoying the pain im going through? am i liking the problem? am i enjoying being sad? am i proud of my state? am i looking for self pity? what is happening to me?

Am i my best friend, i always have the right answer. i just have to reach out and ask myself. and Jhat answer will come. i believe myself. when i am there, i dont need any body else. im self sufficient. i love myself. i just have to listen to myself.

Tomorrow i will prepare a nice looking plan. Now i will study for some time.